Anyhow, I will write a "Therapy Update" later today, but this morning I just want to check in.
When I talk to my friends, they usually ask "How's Mr. M?" or "What's new with Mr. M?" which seems strange to me.
I have not talked to him in almost 2 months and cannot talk to him for another coupla weeks. So although I am sure there is plenty of new stuff with him, I have no idea about any of it!
Now is this an embarrassing statement about how much I constantly talk about and obsess on Mr. M and my alcoholic marriage?
Or is it that my friends don't know what else to talk to me about?
I'm not sure... but I know that at some of the best Al-Anon meetings, some of the healthiest long-timers, will not talk about their "Qualifier" at all... their shares will all be about themselves.
Now THERE'S a novel concept!
Who am I if I am not Mr. M's hurt, betrayed, abandoned wife?
Right now - honest truth? - probably no one.
Which is exactly WHY I need to divorce him.
Then I am just me.
No blaming, no accusing, no focus and obsession with him.
No alcoholic marriage.
Just me alone with me and my successes and accomplishments or lack thereof.
Huh... maybe I'll try that one week... a whole week of posts only about ME... no kids, no Mr. M... just me and my stuff.
You might just find a lot of blank pages!
HA!
